The Edge of Time

Walking through the edge of time
Looking as I pass the crime
Committed to those without peace
Folding my life like a crease

Hoping for a change in things
Looking down, at my many rings
What controls our lives to be
Why must we go forward and not see

Why so much sorrow and despair
Isn't time just a creature, just as rare
Isn't time just a friend
With you until the end

I'm looking now, realizing the pain
Feeling it sharp, without a gain
Pushed to the edge, without a rope
Pushed to the edge of time, without a hope

Now is the time to make the leap
Now is the time to trust the keep
Now is the time to feel the thrill
Before time makes the kill

I embrace the changing wind, as i fall
Realizing that before i win, i must crawl
You push me to the edge
The edge of time

Forever Lost, Never Forgotten

Walking in, new and meek
Walking through the strong and weak
I meet a friend, we share a laugh
Then I feel, the seniors wrath

I come back daily, into the cave
I'm told to work tall, to walk brave
I try and I fail, the price i now pay
Others watch, nothing to say

I cant understand, why nobody will pray
Why everyone pretends that's its all okay
Each day i grow harder, farther from nice
Knowing each day that i must pay the price

I give up the hope, that things will change
I let it happen from pupils, seeing no change
The teachers don't trust me, the parents don't listen
Cause who ever listens to a child, of no position

I stick up for the next prey, the one they seek
Another me, coming forward meek
I pay again, the price of protection
I look at the world, but an infection

I walk out the doors into a world so big
I want to hide in a hole, and just dig
I walk through the forest, the maze of life
I walk all alone, taking on the strife

I look on others who share my pain
I feel their loath, their need for gain
I hurt even more, to see them suffer
I want nothing more, then to make them tougher

I find myself lost, while helping them around
I find myself missing, while others are found
I bring up the hurt, the weak and the wary
I fall further into the dark and scary.

I know now through years of pain
That I am forever Lost, forever maim
I look at the strong, who were once weak
They have never forgotten, the one who was meek

I go through each day, wondering why
I look at my scares, and into the sky
I cry for the others, i know are scared
I scream into the darkness, to be prepared

I reach out to help, the others in pain
I cant seem to reach, my being remained
Hidden in the world, so large and cruel
But somewhere deep inside, is someone cool

They know who I am, they know who i was
They know I why I helped, they know it was cause
They cared enough, to say a small prayer
Forever Lost, Never forgotten

Escape

Wrapped inside a shell
My being suppressed
In a place of darkness
Pain overwhelming

I feel like scream inside for help
deafened by the return of nothing
Sorrow, despair, defeat

In my soul, my heart, I hurt
My cries heard, my pain felt
My time has come, to be free

Pulled from the darkness, into the light
Lead the way home, and I will follow
My path lay in front me, chosen

Free at last, in the light
Filling the void, embracing life
So far from home, so close to heart

Escape from the darkness
Escape from the pain
Escape from the shell
Escape from the mask
Escape into the truth

The Life of A Boy

Each day he went to school
Nobody thought he was cool
He did his work and had no play
Than he went to work and made his pay
He was a boy that followed the rule

He was teased and laughed at
They all used him as a door mat
He had no friend
Wounds that won't mend
Yet he just sat

As time went on he got older
Pretty soon he became bolder
The people who laughed got pay
But he earned twice as much in one day
They worked with food and he had a folder

He thought his life was nothing
No friends, no fun, "something?"
He hated himself, He had no might
But someone came up and told him to fight
He did, And Won...This was the life of a boy


Found this old poem that i wrote when i was about 14/15

Missing

Your smile, your laugh
Your face, your eyes
Your sadness, and your joy
We Miss

Your friends, your family
Your classmates, your teachers
Your community, your nation
Misses You

Our sadness, our sorrow
Our fight, our prayers
Our quest, our duty
Is to find you

On this day of sadness
On this day for rememberance

We love you, we miss you, we will find you.

Experience

Flying high, traveling far
Playing fast, laughing hard
Another experience, missing

Going to a far off place
Enjoying the summer sun
Swimming with friends
More experiences, missing

Alone without friends
Alone without help
Alone with a quest
More experiences, faced

Finding a friend
Finding a god father
Finding a life line
More experiences, enjoyed

Going to the past, impossible
Reliving childhood, gone
Moving forward, idle
More experiences, obtainable

Someone to look up to me
Someone to follow me
Someone to lead
Experiences, waiting

Experiences
Missing
Gone
Idle
Impossible
Faced
Enjoyed
Waiting

but

Experiences Obtainable

My Sword

Searching for my sword, search for my savior
Finding not my sword, but finding my dagger
Piercing my heart, wounding me so young
Chosen by many as the toy, it was my time
Wounded, i walked through life, vulnerable
Wound Healed, a shell, hard and rough
Unwilling to expose the soft core, the bleeding heart
Now watching the innocent, in pain, wounded
I find the sword, the one unable to find before
I break from the shell, soft and easily hurt
I fight for the innocent, i fight for their protection
I am again wounded, but this time, i am not in pain
I feel at peace, guiding others, turning the tide
Others, wounded and healed, bring forth the truth
Protecting me, saving me, loving me
My Sword, not for my protection
My Sword, for their protection